Smokeless Man

So I got back down to two a day.

Then I went on a business trip, and thought 'To Hell With It'. And majorly screwed up. I'm talking a full pack of Marlboro Reds each day, for two days.

*sigh*

It's times like this when I question my motivation for giving up the evil weed. In all honesty, it's not for me. It's for my family - their health, and their financial situation. I'm slightly motivated by the possibility of improving my health, and I'm more aware of the reality of an increased risk of death, but it really is for them.

Which makes it a lot harder when I'm apart from them - as soon as I got back, I managed to get back on the lozenges and back down to 2 a day again.

It also means, I'm making sure I keep a picture of my family on my phone, and in my wallet in a more prominent place - so when I go to pay for ciggies, for example, I can see them and remember why I'm doing this...

Well, my attempt to cut down and give up on smoking and nicotine is well underway. But it's not easy.
Yesterday was Day 1: 4 cigarettes (Usally 20). 11 smoke free hours.

And today was Day 2: 4 cigarettes again (Dammit). 9 smoke free hours.

I found today much harder because I was at home, and unable to do anything to distract myself effectively. I'd have liked to have spent the day playing videogames or watching films etc to keep my mind occupied, but it just wasn't possible. And the bad weather ruled out going out and getting some free exercise...

But it's early days. I'm aiming to cut down tomorrow as a minimum, and then Monday is the day for stopping completely.